It’s been too long….I know!!
Ok so I finally decided to take a glance at my Blog (after Kim reminded that I need to keep up on it while I am away- more on that later) So I check- YIKES!! It has been 6 months since my last post, where the heck have I been? And then a Rachel also mentioned at small group that I need to stay updating my blog. Yes, I know I’ve been lame at this and I promise to try to be better at it. Funny too because I love to write out my feelings and thoughts and all that but and I meant to make this blogging thing a habit but it just never happened. But I am going to try now. 
Well let me tell you that it has been a roller coaster for sure. But a fun one in some ways and lots of moments of where I thought I’d never make it through but I guess that’s what life is all about. I made my missions trip to India. Wow what an amazing journey that was, and I will never be the same because of it. Thanks Sandals, Kim, and my wonderful team for allowing me to come along. What a blessing it was! God really spoke to me and did a great work in my heart and I came back and I asked myself, “Could I go to another country and do what missionaries are doing? Could I give a part of my life to serving God somewhere than the only home I have ever known?” It was a big question for me, for as some of you know- I am normally NOT the daring, adventurous person who would ask a question that kind of question for fear of getting an answer, or an answer that I didn’t want to hear. But this wasn’t the normal me anymore, for over this past year and through my trip to India, God has begun to transform my heart and shape me into the woman He wants me to be, not the one I want to be or think that I should be or think I have the capability to be….Because God knows and wants so much more than anything that I could imagine or hope for myself- What excitement came over me when I realized how truly and clearly this reality has started to become to me. WOW- I’m a part of this plan, I matter, He wants to use me, little old, shy Lindsey. I can’t believe it! But totally awesome! Well, suddenly I felt this urging from God to go somewhere else- but “Where is that?” I asked. I don’t know what I’m doing or talking about, I am not an expert on this kind of thing by any means. But hey, I guess I’ll just pray about it and maybe I’ll get my answer. I was about to graduate, start my credential and really get somewhere in life right? Yeah sure, I suppose, who knows. Haha Well, not even a day after I arrived back from India, still feeling this same feeling, my mom took me by her pastor’s house to say hi and tell him about my trip. Well, sometimes God works to answer prayer faster than He does others….for specific reasons of course. If we all got everything we prayed for at the same time, then it just wouldn’t work. Well, her pastor hears about my trip and then just suddenly tells me that I should go to Fiji on the missions trip that his church was taking. I sorta laughed and thought he was joking. Nope, not a chance. He was totally serious and said I was supposed to go. So I tell him I’ll pray about it, sure what could it hurt. I mean that’s what I thought when I considered applying tp go to India.
Well it took me about 4 days to realize that this was what I was already praying for, God had answered my prayer….it just took me a little bit to get it. So I graduate, finish up two classes and hurry off to Fiji. What an amazing trip, not better than India….just different. God used me in ways that He didn’t use me in India. How cool is it when God shows us that we are not limited. We think we are but the truth is that when we do that, we, in some ways, are putting limits on God and the power and strength He has created us to have. God placed me in a leadership role that I have never really known and I was “forced” to solely depend on God and not others to be successful in different situations for the glory of His kingdom. I got to do and share things about my life with others who needed to hear it, and God knew that.
Anyways, so here I go rambling on and on. What’s my point right? Well I returned from Fiji and realized that Fiji is the place I am supposed to go. So through prayer and communication with the missionaries that we worked with in Fiji, I feel God is calling me to go back. WHOOT WHOOT! I got the green light in every way possible (or at least the important ways) and I’m so very excited, nervous, at peace and stoked to be able to go serve the Lord. Ahh I am feeling so much, I don’t even know all of what I’m feeling but I know it’s going to be good. Even though it’s only for 3 months, tt is going to be crazy living in another country, but I know that I wouldn’t be at the place that I am today, listening to God’s voice telling me to do this, if it hadn’t been for my awesome family, a ton of people praying for me, an awesome church and a great small group encourgaing me in the Lord.
Who knows what God wants to teach me through this journey I am about to take in two weeks but I am happy to say that I think I am finally ready to honestly say that no matter what God asks of me, I will do. Because without Him, I am nothing and I am who I am because of His love!
Oh yeah, so be keeping me in prayer these next 3 months. I’m going to need lots of it! I’ll miss all my small group friends and fellow Sandalites, but I shall return.
Ok then, I’m off to bed now. I’ll write more soon, before I leave. Keep up the reading (those of you who actually read my blogging or lack of blogging I should say) as I will be updating my blog while I’m in Fiji…..
Below is a sweet pic of my soon-to-be front yard….ahhh!! Enjoy!
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